Green

Questions to ask the cosmos:

Why do i have to see a gorgeous couple looking so happy together?

How do i tell my friend how i feel? Is it mutual?

How come i always get just a little share of everything?

When will the madness stop?

What is so wrong with listening to songs from disney movies, miss saigon and les miserables?

Why can’t i stop thinking of my ex?

Why can’t i just stop thinking?

Why do people become green when they are envious?

Why do people turn green when they wanna puke?

Why is chlorophyll green? Is the plant envious? Does it wanna throw up?

Why did I become green when i saw a gorgoeus couple openly showing to the world that they love each other? maybe it’s because i wanna throw up. maybe through that, lumagpak sa harapan ko yung para sa kin.

abnormal

More than platonic

hypothetical question:

what if, just what if you wake up one morning and you realize that you love one of your friends more than you should, like beyond friendship.

or worse, you wake and you realize you finally have the balls to admit that you’ve fallen for this person but chose not to pursue it because things might get weird between the two of you

romantically, there’s the kilig factor - a la my bestfriend’s wedding. but then when you think about it, are you at the losing end? if the feeling isn’t mutual, then you’re not lovers and not even friends. wag na nga secret na lang. bahala cya sa buhay nya.

teka bat ako apektado eh hypothetical question nga. haller.

One true love

my friends and i were having dinner the other night.

as usual, kwentuhan etc. then na-open yung topic.

it started when i told them na out of the blue, my ex started texting, asking if we could be friends. i said no, of course, after everything that happened.

then one of them pointed it out. something that i didn’t want in the spotlight: "Mahal mo pa sya no? Aminin mo?"

i was dumbstruck. i wanted to say no, because that’s the truth. hindi ko na cya mahal. mali, ayoko na sya mahalin.

anyway, that where another question popped out. sino nga ba ang one true love namin.

isa lang naman sagot ko dyan e. yung soulmate ko. si sheryl a. opalla.

alam ko lahat ng mga classmates ko magta-tumbling pag nabasa to. pero i’m not ashamed to admit it - cya ang one true love ko. the one who had my heart and my soul. the one who got away. things would have been perfect… kung ndi lang ako nagloko.

i should have done this, done that. shouldn’t have done this and that. andaming regrets. ang engot ko kasi eh.

ayun, cyempre, typical reaction ko sa lahat ng failed relationships ko - humanap ng iba. pero bali-baliktarin ko man ang mundo. ang hinahanap ko, yung katulad nya. kasing sweet, sexy, ganda, talino at maldita nya. yung tipong sinasampal ako randomly kasi wala lang tapos sabay pupulupot. tipong ganun.

yun lang. sadly. malabo pa sa ilog pasig na maging kami ulet. so sorry na lang ako.

what’s weird is that, though i long to be with her, pag nagkita ata kami bigla na lang ako mamamatay.

Posible

kahit na paulit ulit na ang lahat
may makikilala ka, ok naman
dumarating yung time na maiisip mo
eto na yun
cya na to

masaya ka
masaya kayo. or at least akala mo masaya kayo
everything was good
skies are brighter
nararamdaman mo ulet yung sensation
na parang may kung anong feeling na magaan
nanjan sa dibdib mo

just when you thought
eto na
ready for the plunge
parang nung dati
i’m ready. i’ll love again
bring it on

sabay poof
akala mo lang yun
akala mo lang ganun
assuming ka kasi

talon
dive
bagsak

ayan magdusa ka
tanga ka e
bat ka na-inlove

Thanks kay yael and gosh for this

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halika na
iyong lunurin ang problema’t kalimutan
may tanong pa ba
di na kelangang mag-isip
pagkat bughaw ang ating langit

malapit na akong matunaw
puso ko’t damdamin ay sumisigaw

dahil ako’y nasasabik
sa muli mong pagdampi sa aking labi
pagka’t ngayo’y hinahanap hanap pa rin
ang iyong tamis
sa tuwi tuwina

ito na ang sandali
ashaan mong makikinig ng walang maliw
di na kailangang pang itago ang nadarama’t magduda
matagal ka nang naiinip, di ba?

dahil ako’y nasasabik
sa muli mong pagdampi sa aking labi
dahil ngayo’y hinahanap hanap pa rin
ang iyong tamis
sa tuwi tuwina