i was out on a date…. with myself heheheh
i woke up really late. last night’s party was a blast, although…. forget it heheh.
took a quick shower and took off to the nearest starbucks for aome brew and started reading eragon. awesome book. devoured chapter after chapter till it was time for my appointment with the stylist. an hour and a hlaf later i was sporting a new hairstyle. then i decided to watch happy feet… so i hopped to another less-crowded mall to watch it alone. kinda weird but i got used to it. story was shallow but the cgi was out of this world. then i went to yet another mall to windowshop for christmas gifts for certain special people in my life.
it was almost 11pm when i got home. exhausted, but unusually happy…
EYE IN THE SKY
Don’t think sorry’s easily said
Don’t try turning tables instead
You’ve taken lots of chances before
But I ain’t gonna give any more
Don’t ask me
That’s how it goes
Cause part of me knows what you’re thinkin’
Don’t say words you’re gonna regret
Don’t let the fire rush to your head
I’ve heard the accusation before
And I ain’t gonna take any more
Believe me
The sun in your eyes
Made some of the lies worth believing
I am the eye in the sky
Looking at you
I can read your mind
I am the maker of rules
Dealing with fools
I can cheat you blind
And I don’t need to see any more
To know that I can read your mind, I can read your mind
Don’t leave false illusions behind
Don’t cry cause I ain’t changing my mind
So find another fool like before
Cause I ain’t gonna live anymore believing
Some of the lies while all of the signs are deceiving
I am the eye in the sky
Looking at you
I can read your mind
I am the maker of rules
Dealing with fools
I can cheat you blind
And I don’t need to see any more
To know that I can read your mind, I can read your mind
i had a very weird day…
everything started normal. i woke up late.
i brought a friend to my other friend’s house. i did my good deed for the decade… we cleaned up her place. la lang i just got the impulse to reorganize everything in my path. we finished early evening and decided to grab a bite.
we went to robinsons pioneer then we opted to just go get some coffee since we’re not hungry anyway. awa ng dyos walang malapit na starbucks so we had to walk papasok ng papasok ng pioneer… wala. took the trike ayun meron sa edsa central.
we had coffee… chatted a little the went home in opposite directions. then i realized i wanted to buy some dvds from guadalupe so i took the bus back. ayun nkabili ng corrs live in london. took the bus to monumento.
travelling regularly from the office to monumento by bus is really a long long long ride. ngayon, surprisingly, i was awake the whole time from guadalupe. siguro mga 45 mins to an hour yun. the whole time walang tumabi sa kin. not that i wanted someone beside me pero there was a point when all the seats were taken except the two seats beside me. (i was on the rigth side, yung tatluhan, and i was sitting right beside the window) the whole time wala talagang sumasakay. praning ako. is there something wrong with me? was i sprouting horns? do i smell funny? bakit kaya…
anyway nawala na sa isip ko yun. i was so immersed in my ipod. finally may tumabi. employee ng toy kingdom. sumakay ng north edsa. then pagdating ng muñoz, lipat agad to the nearest vacant seat. hala bakit ba kasi…
monumento na. bumaba na ko. sakay ng jeep na divisoria. there was this girl right beside me. then biglang lumipat sa kabilang side tumabi dun sa guy. turns out boyfriend nya pala yun. pero nkakapraning talaga kasi ng bakit ba walang gusto tumabi sa kin?
then it hit me. nakasulat sa t-shirt ko: TALK DIRTY TO ME
asus napagkamalan ata akong perv. bwiset.
gising pa ako anong petsa na…. bakit? kasi busog na busog na busog pa rin ako.
nag foodtrip kami sa saisaki sa glorieta. eat all you can at dahil japs cyempre nagpakalunod ako sa sashimi… grabe para na ata akong si gollum sa dami nung hilaw na isdang tinira ko. nalalasahan ko pa hanggang ngaun ung salmon… talaappp
recently andami ko nadidiscover na masarap
– tower of nachos dun sa isang samm resto sa may jetti macapagal. isang tumpok ng nachos na may pesto, salsa and mozzarella talaaapp
– apple pie dun sa sugarhouse. forever kong pinagmamalaki. fresh warm apple pie that’s not too sweet served with thick cream on the side and a mountain of grated cheddar on top. napakasarap.
– italian sausage sa almon marina. yun ang definition ng tender juicy
– chocolate cake sa… chocolat. tamang tama pang alis umay
talappppp
anu na nga ba… ano na lagay namin. when i was younger i used to think that im a pretty simple person. tipong what you see is what you get. now i realized that im really complicated. uu nga, what you see is what you get kaso most of the time, what you see… hindi mo ma-gets kung bakit ganun. ang gulo.
confession portion: on the rocks na nga… pero still nararamdaman ko the love is still there. wala na ata akong mamahalin pang iba ng ganito ka-sincere. yun lang (kaya nga magulo ako) kasi narealize ko na to have a relationship with me, kelangan mo magdusa. ewan ko ba pag maayos ginugulo ko. i realized that really, pag ako love isn’t realy enough. siguro kaya nga im not the marrying type. kawawa naman siguro yung asawa’t anak ko kung bigla na lang, i wake up one morning and look at them like they were strangers. kakatakot no….
Hay ang buhay talaga hindi ka mapirmi sa isang state. bat hindi na lang forever masaya. laging may up and may down.
Downside: Nasira ko ang napakamahal at pinakamamahal kong headset… pano yan hindi ako mkakilos ng walang nkasalpak sa tenga ko T_T
Upside: Bumili na lang ako ng iPod shuffle. anyway mas practical naman kesa gumastos ako ng 2300 just for a new pair of earplugs di ba = )
Downside: Im back to my old broke self T_T
Downside: Hindi masyado maganda ang pinatutunguhan ng aking relasyon ngayon T_T
Upside: It gives me perspective to think kung talagang kami ba talaga = )
Downside: Mukang pababa na talaga T_T
awww… ang sarap nun
french apple pie ng sugarhouse… imagine… a thick slice of apple pie that’s not too sweet, topped with a generous layer of grated cheese and served warm with cream… napaka sarap…. sobrang sarap titirik ang mata mo… promise
I had a six-day vacation weee…. sa lahat ng araw na yon, nakapag patranscend ako sa RO, nadiscover ko si CHEN ng DoTA, nagpakaligaya kami ng buong DCA, nagkaron ako ng bagong crush (hanggang dun na lang yun), natapos ko na yung banner na pinapagawa sa kin, nakapagpa-highlights ako ng buhok… and the cherry on top of the wonderful cake - naging friend ko na si Yael Yuzon dito sa Friendster… weeeeee
Nakakaiyak… ewan ko. Sabi ko I’m willing to fight for this. But look what’s happening. I tried to resuscitate it. I really did. But’ you’re not helping me. Hindi ko naman kaya to gawin mag-isa. Siguro hindi mo lang talaga ako ganun kakilala, although considering that it’s been almost nine months… san naman that meant something.
I’m afraid to let go. Please don’t let me.
its been a while. yes, alam ko lately i’m too distant, somewhat cold, a little aloof. ewan. hindi ko rin ma-explain. it’s just me. sick old me. incapable of keeping a long-term commitment. that’s me.
but i love you. i really do. sana lang we could get over this.
sa wakas umiilaw na ko! weeeeeeeeeeeee
salamat po kay jeth, rein, cn, james, ivan, tita, kaze, ram, sa bro kong si jc, kay dee at dar at sa buong dca.
Everybody who knows me knows how bad it gets when I flare up…
Last night, kawawa naman yung agent kasi she receieved full blast ng galit ko. Nanggigigil ako sa SmartBro… service has been terrible for the past few days and really… nakakapag init ng ulo.
daily ako tumatawag to inform them how bad their connection was at eto ang sagot:
monday - ""i-monitor nyo na lang po, na-coordinate na po ang concern nyo"
tuesday - ""i-monitor nyo na lang po, na-coordinate na po ang concern nyo"
wednesday - ""i-monitor nyo na lang po, na-coordinate na po ang concern nyo"
thursday - ""i-monitor nyo na lang po, na-coordinate na po ang concern nyo"
friday - ""i-monitor nyo na lang po, na-coordinate na po ang concern nyo"
nampota wala na ba kayo ibang alam na linya. whats more infuriating was, intermttent yung connection. sometimes its good, most of the time its bad. i undersatand pa yung monday and tuesday when they said na sira yung base station nila. fine. point taken. salamat kay milenyo.
pero when everything else in the goddamn city is ok at sila na alng ang may problema, ibang usapan na yan.
i’m sorry for saying this… sa friends ko sa smart at mga smart subscribers… sana pag taga smart ka, smart ka rin. grrrrrr
I had the weirdest dream i had so far… tama ba yun? lumamalabn daw ako ng biritan kay bryan mcknight? asus ano baaaa buti na lang nagising ako wakokokok
anong petsa na… its 2 in the morning and gising pa ko…. nasabik siguro sa net.
kasi naman… since thursday down ang smartbro… namfuta umuulan pa.
what to say… i write sins not tragedies… and basta sin parang expert ata ako. wala lang… makasalanan talaga ako… at pag natuloy ang kasalanan kong ito… gosh wala talaga akong kwentang tao.
ayoko na…. huhuhu… promise magbabago na ko
hay… mananalo ata ako ng nobel peace prize dahil sa ginagawa ko.
dakilang referee ng mga tao… mediator… kasi naman kasimpleng bagay ndi na lang pagusapan. kelangan talaga dumaan sa todong drama.
i know for most people it doens’t seem like a bg deal, but for us… at least sa mga taga fenrir, malaking bagay to. magkakaron kami ng re-org… sana lang matanggap ng buong mundo ang pagbabago. for the betterment fo the guild naman e
sa wakas nanood kami ng maximo oliveros…
it was… how do you say it… typical indie film. right from the first shot, inding-indie na. throughout the course of the movie i was trying to look for moments to confirm people’s reactions that the movie was good, that the lead (nathan lopez) was good, that is was… well good.
i dont wanna burst people’s bubbles but hey, hindi ba a little overrated yung movie. storyline was great (indie kasi e), but i can’t really give the movie a standing ovation. there were plenty of scenes that seemed contrived. in fairness to nathan, magaling yung bata kaso hindi kasing galing as i expected dahil nga sa mga initial reviews. the love interest (si victor) was stoic.
umikot lang ang ulo ko nung biglang umalis na yung hepe nila then sabay pasok ng replecement….. janjararaaaaannnn si kuya bodgie. sorry pero humagalpak ako ng tawa sa sinehan. serious moment dapat sabay litaw ni kuya bodgie. i’m pretty sure that wasn’t the reaction the director was aiming for. sori direk.
sa mga ignorante na lang siguro… watch it. you’ll learn a thing or two about family. reminder lang sa manonood na mababa ang moralidad: wala pong bed scene ni kissing scene yung dalawang bida. kakahiya kayo hehehehehe
as usual.. it being a saturday, na kila tita kami… biolabs na walang kamatayan then dota… ang naiba, nkatulog ako ng matiwasay…
at may nadiscover kami… ang mga pantasya ni reinier p. gloria… aka lorein…
mahilig pala cya sa mga malalaki… matataba… na may dalawang ulo… parang si… puhg /gg
at eto pa… nakakadiri… may pagnanasa din cya… sa most unlikely creature / friend namin… guuwwwaaarrrkkk
kakaiba…
it feels weird to look at your ex’s blog and read your ex’s posts… about her forthcoming wedding…
weird talaga ako
i dunno… may sakit ba ko…
my life right now is just a menagerie of feelings. lately up and down ang moods (ano ko babae?!? amfuta!)
doing well on my job (i think)
doing well as a boyfriend (not as sweet siguro but the sex is still amazing and that’s what matters hehehe)
doing well financially (finally)
not as much in my gaming life (level down sa ragnarok, kelangan ko matuto ng o2jam, kelangan ko gumaling sa DOTA, may VIP card ako sa quantum)
what is going on here
All around me are familiar facesWorn out places, Worn out facesBright and early for the daily racesGoing nowhere, Going nowhereTheir tears are filling up their glassesNo expression, No expressionHide my head I want to drown my sorrowsNo tomorrow, No tomorrow
Chorus And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sadThe dreams in which i’m dying, Are the best I’ve ever hadI find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to takeWhen people run in circles its a very veryMad World, Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel goodHappy Birthday, Happy BirthdayAnd they feel the way that every child shouldSit and listen, Sit and listenWent to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, No one knew meHello teacher tell me whats my lessonLook right through me, Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sadThe dreams in which i’m dying, Are the best I’ve ever hadI find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to takeWhen people run in circles it’s a very veryMad World, Mad World
Enlargen your world
Girl meets boy, and Girl goes crazyBoy backs away, She gets her heart brokenNo words are spokenBoy comes back and actsAs if everything is coolSoon she’s got him back upon a pedestalShe only sees what she wants to seeLove is blind, love is so misleading
I see the light, ohh what a lightAnd I am soberAll that you served to meNo longer will I drink it inI took the time to think it overI see the you that I never knewNow it’s finally sinking inI am sober
Girl wakes up and smells the coffee one dayRealizes she’s on her own againAll alone againBoy takes every opportunityTo play on every insecurityGet her back on trackShe’s in a daze, back in the fireBut will she cave into her old desires
Hindi ako masyadong adik sa Ragnarok.
Hindeee…
Finally we got to get together last week. Ang pinaka wafung guild sa Fenrir: Demolition Crew Rebirth hehehe
Funny thing was, most of us got to be friends even before we got to see the people behind the avatars. Naks.
Iba pala ang feeling when u see the guys you fight wars with. What’s even nicer is how you realize kung gano ka-diverse yung group. From the most senior - and supposedly most mature - to the infantile (sori Em kelangan ko talaga sabihin). You see how the connections made went beyond gaming. It’s really amazing.
Yun lang… sana magka-agit kami na amin lang and sana matupad ang wish ni dandee na magka-emperor’s crown… and sana umilaw na ko heheh
I dunno…
Weird. Freak. Yun nga
People always find it hard to see why I’m like this.
I don’t really mean to… you know… stand out. It’s not that but then I’d rather be living my life my way than having some dick-wit dictate to me. I guess that’s one thing people find hard to accept. That there are people like me who don’t really give a flying f_ck what others think.
I do what I want and you can’t do anything about it.
It’s my life. Get one for yourself.
